Charlotte H. Lee

Charlotte H. Lee lives in British Columbia, Canada and has been writing for fun since her teen years. She is a retired accountant with two grown children who have inherited her love of storytelling. Charlotte’s stories have appeared in The Fable Online, The Lorelei Signal, and 9Tales from Elsewhere.

Keeping the Lights On

I pull my little red wagon along behind me. Its lumpy wheels, as ancient as I am, bump over cracks in the decaying concrete ramp that leads to the below-grade train station that’s become home, unconcerned that precious bits I’ve gathered from Above might spill out despite the bungeed tarp covering. I pass curtained tents lit from within by rush lights that send up dirty smoke, painting the ceiling black. Every so often, hanging between the hovels, there’s a grimy, unlit light fixture patiently waiting for its electrical circuit to open again. They sway gently in the breeze blowing in through the cracks of Columbia Station’s patched over roof.

When I reach the end of the block, I turn left and head for my workshop, past carefully angled mirrors that amplify and direct light down to the subterranean grow spaces. I pass huddled figures of beggar children, orphans of people dead of disease or squabble. Their eyes, too big in gaunt faces, track my movement as unerringly as the cats that keep the rats at bay.

“What d’ya do wid all dat, Grandma?” A face appears at my elbow, gaze curious on my haul.

“Make stuff,” I grumble. Maybe it’ll take the hint.

No such luck. The kid, maybe twelve years old, follows me, poking at the wagon’s tarp.

“Don’t touch that.” Last thing I need is some urchin buggering off with the alternator I’ve spent days searching for, diligently ignoring the armed escort Zelwicki had insisted I take with me. There’s only so far the boss is willing to go to indulge my foibles, and risking her only engineer isn’t on her map.

The kid turns big black eyes on me, matted and scraggly black hair hiding much of its features.

“What d’ya make, Grandma?”

“Stuff.” Clearly the kid didn’t get the memo. But then, the kid has no idea what a memo is. Hell, even I barely remember what they look like. No one wastes paper for reading or writing anymore, not when it’s the best way to turn a spark into a cook fire.

“Beforetimes things? Can I see?” the kid asks, still on my heels when I get to my shop door.

“No, you can’t. Go on with ya, I’ve got work to do. Stop bothering me.” I make shooing motions at the kid. I don’t want it shedding head lice in my space.

I open the door. A rustle in the racking over my workbench warns me I’ve got four-legged company. Hopefully, it’s the grey tabby tom that’s taken a shine to me, rather than the rats he’s meant to hunt.

Filthy creatures, rats. Almost as dirty as the kid gawping at the pegboard above my bench. Every tool gleams, each hanging below precisely lettered labels. I swing the magnifying glass away from the bench’s wall, working the articulated arm until it’s aimed at the wagon. I flick on its florescent light.

“I mean it, kid. Git. I have work to do.”

“I want to help,” it says, wide eyes fixated on the lamp.

“Help? Know anything about turbines?” I fix the kid with a beady glare.

“I could learn.”

“Ha,” I say with a snort. “You can’t even read.” I take a single, menacing step in the kid’s direction. “GIT!”

The only heads up I get is the rattle of loose parts colliding. By the time I look, it’s already too late. The cat leaps from overhead, a bin of junk motors tumbling down in his wake. I would’ve forgiven him for everything but the one sound that makes my throat seize up: the crash of steel on glass. The lamp light blinks out.

I stare at the carnage, motionless.

“Is that bad?” the kid asks from my elbow, making me jump out of my skin.

I’m too aghast to protest the kid’s encroachment into my space. “Yeah.” I reach for the lamp’s head, hoping against hope that all I need do is wiggle the circular bulb a bit. “I can’t see to solder circuit boards without the light.” Not all the wiggling in the world brings the light back on. At least the thick glass weathered the impact without damage.

“Could I help? Hold a candle for you, maybe?”

Impotent anger boils up. “I already told you to git gone,” I say through clenched teeth. “You didn’t listen and now lookit. If you don’t scram this minute, I’m gonna beat you into next week. You hear?”

There’s a quiet slap of bare feet on concrete, then I’m alone. I ease my old bones onto the stool, slumping in defeat. Now what?

Everything For Beth

“How long?” I asked, though it was more a reflexive thing than conscious, a way to let quantum uncertainty rise to entanglement, a way to buy myself some time to process the worst news a mother can get.

“There’s still so much we don’t know about the Kitui virus, Gail,” Dr. Abraham said, “we know less about it after ten years than we did about HIV in its first decade.” She leaned across the arm of her chair and cradled my hand in hers. “We aren’t yet sure what triggers the onset of symptoms. It could be years before Beth shows even preliminary symptoms.”

“And when she does? How long then?” Outside, a crow squawked and was answered by its friends. What a racket. I hate those birds. Dirty, filthy, noisy, greedy. I snatched my hand back.

“Depending on how strong her immune system is, and how careful you are with her nutrition, anywhere from six to sixty months.” The doctor’s eyes searched my face. I could feel them on me, digging into my brain. Peeling back the layers of hair, skin, tissue, and bone until she could steal the thoughts right out of my head.

“Can I take her home now?”

A soft sigh. “We need to bring her temperature down a bit more and get her fully hydrated. It’s best if you leave her here overnight, and if she responds well you can take her home in the morning.”

I jumped up. “Thank you, Doctor.” I couldn’t look at her. “How long before my GP has all this?” My eyes burned with pending tears, and I needed to get away, to be alone. By the time she answered me, I had tapped my thumb pads against my middle fingers from the second knuckle all the way up to the pad, then all the way back down.

“It usually takes two business days for updates to reach practitioners, as long as they run updates every night.”

I remembered to aim a nod in her direction before I bolted. I didn’t quite make it to the emergency stairs before the dam burst, but at least I was able to hold onto the sobs. Beth, my darling little girl, just five years old. The door clicked shut behind me and I fell to my knees, the sobs ripping through me as if my lungs wanted to fly away, taking my heart with them. How could this happen? It was unfair in the extreme, she was just a little girl! It should be some bad guy who got sick and died in pain from an incurable illness. Good people deserved good things, and Beth was good. Good, dammit! I sobbed and raged, pounding my fists against the wall until I’d bloodied them. It was wrong, so very wrong, for a mother to bury a child. I could not let this happen.

Everything For Beth

“How long?” I asked, though it was more a reflexive thing than conscious, a way to let quantum uncertainty rise to entanglement, a way to buy myself some time to process the worst news a mother can get.

“There’s still so much we don’t know about the Kitui virus, Gail,” Dr. Abraham said, “we know less about it after ten years than we did about HIV in its first decade.” She leaned across the arm of her chair and cradled my hand in hers. “We aren’t yet sure what triggers the onset of symptoms. It could be years before Beth shows even preliminary symptoms.”

“And when she does? How long then?” Outside, a crow squawked and was answered by its friends. What a racket. I hate those birds. Dirty, filthy, noisy, greedy. I snatched my hand back.

“Depending on how strong her immune system is, and how careful you are with her nutrition, anywhere from six to sixty months.” The doctor’s eyes searched my face. I could feel them on me, digging into my brain. Peeling back the layers of hair, skin, tissue, and bone until she could steal the thoughts right out of my head.

“Can I take her home now?”

A soft sigh. “We need to bring her temperature down a bit more and get her fully hydrated. It’s best if you leave her here overnight, and if she responds well you can take her home in the morning.”

I jumped up. “Thank you, Doctor.” I couldn’t look at her. “How long before my GP has all this?” My eyes burned with pending tears, and I needed to get away, to be alone. By the time she answered me, I had tapped my thumb pads against my middle fingers from the second knuckle all the way up to the pad, then all the way back down.

“It usually takes two business days for updates to reach practitioners, as long as they run updates every night.”

I remembered to aim a nod in her direction before I bolted. I didn’t quite make it to the emergency stairs before the dam burst, but at least I was able to hold onto the sobs. Beth, my darling little girl, just five years old. The door clicked shut behind me and I fell to my knees, the sobs ripping through me as if my lungs wanted to fly away, taking my heart with them. How could this happen? It was unfair in the extreme, she was just a little girl! It should be some bad guy who got sick and died in pain from an incurable illness. Good people deserved good things, and Beth was good. Good, dammit! I sobbed and raged, pounding my fists against the wall until I’d bloodied them. It was wrong, so very wrong, for a mother to bury a child. I could not let this happen.