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The Castaway

The naked man, washed up from the sea, watched Misaki from a crouch on the snow-covered shore. In the gray light of early evening, she thought he looked like Michelangelo’s David, carved from obsidian.

Misaki’s breath steamed from her hike down the rocky shore to the harbor. Beside her, her dog growled.

The man’s breath didn’t frost in the air. His naked black limbs didn’t tremble in the cold wind off the sea. Misaki’s hope of companionship withered.

And Man created android in his own image.

Behind him in the harbor, seawater surged over drowned piers. The derelict remains of the island’s defense platform were no more than a breakwater now. Waves crashed against the slagged framework, revealing no hint of its iceberg-like bulk in the depths.

“Calm, Akira,” whispered Misaki, her gloved hand trembling on the dog’s back. She felt the rumble of Akira’s growl, but wind and surf snatched away the sound.

The android’s eyes held hers. She bowed, a useless gesture. How had he gotten here? The only boats were her yellow kayak, dragged up on the harbor shore, and storm-smashed boats on the rocks behind her. She couldn’t outrun him.

Her dog slipped free, advancing toward him, fangs bared.

“Akira!”

She caught up, pulled off her glove, and grabbed a handful of dark fur. She forced Akira to sit, kneeling beside him in the snow.

The android was only a few arms lengths away. His head tilted slightly, studying the dog, not Misaki. Above high cheekbones, the android’s eyes had internal facets like liquid origami. Snowflakes danced over his dark skin without melting. The skin had no cuts, no bruises, no abrasions of any kind. Misaki’s long hair was going prematurely gray, and she had more scars than she could count. Most were from the past two years, since the Singularity had left her alone on the island.

“Sorry for my dog,” she said. Even as she said it, she realized how futile that was. He had as much in common with her as a submarine had with a shrimp. And was just as dangerous.

“Dog,” he repeated, mimicking her voice exactly.

She shuddered, remembering deceptions during the war. “Yes, this island is our home.”

Maybe he came from the west and only knew Russian. No, he must be networked, fluent in every language. And he certainly wasn’t here by accident. She had a good idea why: the island’s lighthouse. That didn’t bode well.

“Why are you here?” She kneaded her hand in the nape of Akira’s neck, trying to calm him and herself.

The android turned his attention back to her.

Instantly she regretted speaking. He was handsome and powerfully built, a foot taller than her. Her heart was pounding, her mouth dry.

She stood, pulling Akira back, fighting the instinct to run.

He stood as well.

“We won’t bother you,” she said, trying to sound calm.

“You,” he echoed.

An accusation or a question?

“Misaki. And my dog, Akira.” She wondered if he’d been damaged by the recent storm. Could he be offline? A disconnected fragment of the AI hive mind?

She retreated up the shore, head turned to watch him. Her pulse raced as she dragged Akira by the scruff of his neck.

The android followed like a wolf stalking stragglers of a herd. Akira’s head was turned like Misaka’s, growling. Misaki breathed shallow and fast. She fervently wished she hadn’t come down to the shore. But it had been over two years since the Singularity. She’d grown complacent. What could she do now? It wasn’t safe to lead him to her cottage, but was anyplace safe? She couldn’t outrun him, couldn’t hide. Her only hope was that he’d think she was like the birds on the shore: harmless wildlife. She tried not to think about the weapon in the lighthouse, afraid her body language would give her away. The weapon was as likely to get her killed as save her. She’d be like a garter snake attacking a mongoose.

She walked up the shore stooped over, afraid to release her grip on Akira to put her glove back on. The wind was cold on the back of her hand, in contrast to her fingers warm in his long fur. She sang to him, voice threatening to crack. She didn’t dare let go, or the fool dog would get himself killed. The path rose toward her cottage overlooking the harbor.

She’d moved in after the last refugee boats had left and the island was abandoned. At the time she’d been too sick to leave. Afterwards she’d been alone until she found two other left-behinds: Akira and a starving cat, Mao.

And now the android.

She glanced behind. He still followed but wasn’t looking at her. His focus was on the houses up the hill. Most were storm-damaged. After two years, hers was the only one in good shape. She’d replaced windows blown out by storms, cannibalizing other houses. It was a good cottage. It was her cottage. She cursed the android, working swear words into the song she sang Akira.

When she reached the door to her cottage, she unlatched it, pushing Akira inside. She considered darting in after him and locking the door. Pointless. The android could rip it off its hinges as easily as she could close it.

She stepped inside. He followed, and she shivered at the danger of this naked man in her refuge.

The cottage was a single level: one main room, two smaller ones and a bathroom. She had running water from a gravity tank and a system of pipes she’d built. There was a fire pit in the center of the main room, with a wide-flanged stove pipe suspended above.

Mao came over, purring against her leg. Unlike Akira, he didn’t recognize the android as a threat.

“Mao,” she explained. “My cat.”

“My cat,” said the android in her voice.

She could lead him out now, leaving Akira and Mao here. Lure the android to the lighthouse where the weapon was. Destroy him. But if he defeated her, what would happen to Akira and Mao? She wasn’t brave enough. Here, she had the comfort of her companions. Perhaps the android would lose interest and leave.

Mao, still rubbing against her, meowed.

“Are we starving, poor thing?” Her voice shook. She rubbed under the cat’s chin.

She glanced at the android. Behind him, the windows looked out on the harbor. The light had faded enough that she could just make out the beam from the lighthouse sweeping out to sea.

Akira settled onto his bed by the fire pit, watching warily.

“I make a fire every night,” Misaki said to the android. She wondered if he understood anything. Was talking to it good or bad? “I found a wood stove in another house but couldn’t loosen the bolts to take it. An open fire isn’t very efficient. You know all about that, don’t you? Efficiency.”

She watched his handsome face and those liquid origami eyes that she couldn’t read, wishing he were human: kind and gentle. Not a killing machine. She turned away, kneeling by the fire pit. Her shoulders tensed, knowing he was behind her. She brushed the old ashes aside and picked up her knife and a stick, whittling a pile of wood shavings.

In the Shadow of the Perch

While royal blood soaked into the whitewashed planks of the gallows, I ran.

I didn’t bother to pack up my cart. Leaving it in the palace courtyard meant losing my good shovel, ten sacks of fertilizer, and the half dozen mulberry sprouts I’d hauled all the way up here. But hanging around in the aftermath of an assassination would be much worse for me in the long run.

I hurried towards the gate as quick as my weak knees and heavy work boots would allow, waiting to hear cries of “Stop, Master Acton!” or “Seize that gardener!” from behind me. Luckily, the red-cloaked guards hadn’t noticed my exit. Even at the best of times, a worker from the lower boroughs wasn’t worth a second glance from them or any other Perch-dwellers. Now, with the sovereigns dying at their feet, I might as well have been invisible.

Fine by me.

Before I slipped out of the courtyard, I chanced a look back. There, King Phillipe and Crown Prince Rillin Verling were splayed out in the hooked claw shadow of the gallows. Crossbow bolts stuck out from their bodies, and my stomach twisted. Grief and confusion won out over my desire to run. Were they dead? Was the assailant still here? Was the princess the next target?

I scanned the parapets lining the courtyard, searching for unseen villains. Nothing.

Then, a flash of movement to my right, a shadow disappearing into an alley. Was it the killer? Maybe. If I took the main street, I could head them off at the intersection, tackle them, bring them before the Royal Guard, and–

Stop.

I gripped the cold metal of the courtyard gates. I didn’t know who wanted to murder the two most important men in the city, but it wasn’t my responsibility to find out, much less track them down. This wasn’t my world anymore. I’d left the upper borough years ago and returned today for a job. That’s it. And I wasn’t even staying to finish it. Whatever came of this morning, it didn’t concern me. I needed to cut my losses and let the shrikes up here deal with it.

I turned my back on the courtyard and started the long journey down from the Perch.

In a World I Cannot Reach

I find hidden worlds everywhere. Tiny ones in tea cups, spelled out in bloated leaves to weave fortunes. Quiet ones under bridges, whispering riddles and bubbling bargains. Some I discover beneath the thunder of crashing waves, seeping into porous cliff faces. Others are plain as day, staring back at me through reflective glass.

The only one I wanted to find was the one that took you away.

No matter how many worlds I discovered, that one eluded me.

I paced around the ancient oak in rings, just as mom taught me, murmuring the ‘right’ words to coax out hidden depths within the brittle bark. My eyes traced the rotten crack splitting the trunk in a long, vertical fissure. I could imagine stepping through.

Mom had warned us not to enter other worlds. Gazing was safe, but trespasses rarely ended well.

My ringed steps tightened their circuit around the oak, heart fluttering in my chest as browned leaves crunched to dust under my toes. This was surely the world you inhabited now. I whispered the final phrase, hand grazing the rough trunk, thumb curling just inside the deep crack.

Whispers deep within the tree answered back; far deeper than a tree ought to be.

Holding my breath as if ready to plunge into the ocean, I stuck my head into the fissure.

A shiver ran down my spine as if someone dumped a bucket of warm water on my head. Stars rained down like flakes of snow, sparkling tails hissing as they passed my ears. I couldn’t tell if I was too big for this world, or if the stars were just that small.

A golden carp swam by as if the black void were nothing but ink in water. Its tail trailed streams of gold like honey, and a strange buzzing filled the air. The longer I stayed, the stronger the buzzing grew. It grew and grew until the fish itself seemed to vibrate in my wavering vision, my eyes watering as I strained to see more in this world of ink and fallen stars.

Something hot leaked from my eyes, but it was too thick to be tears. The popping in my brain turned to crackling like it was cooking.

Strong hands on my shoulders yanked me out, and I gasped and sputtered, coming up for air I hadn’t realized I needed. Still, my heart beat more from exhilaration than panic.

“What are you doing?”

My brother’s deep voice was laced with more than irritation. Now that you’re gone, there’s always a touch of fear in Samuel’s tone.

“Looking for dad,” I said.

“You aren’t going to find him in a tree.” Samuel reached out to wipe my cheeks. His hands came away red. “You were supposed to be helping me check the traps.” He was trying to hide that he was worried, as if I wouldn’t see. I always let him think he succeeded.

“Better to look there than nowhere,” I muttered.

“One day, you’re going to peek in a crack and fall straight through the center of the world.”

Anger prickled at the back of my scalp, white-hot and indignant. Samuel didn’t have the right to lecture me. He gave up looking into other worlds when you left. I didn’t understand why; he was better than me at finding hidden places, other realms. If I had his help, I’d find you in no time. I think he likes being in charge now.

After promising to do something productive with my day, I climbed our cabin’s steps as Samuel trudged back out into the woods with his bow in hand, quiver slung over his shoulder. Your flannel shirt hung on a nail just inside the door, breeze flapping the red and black checkered sleeve in greeting. I took it down and pulled it on, hugging myself and inhaling pine and cedar, imagining it was your arms embracing me.

The pockets were deep enough to use for pine nut picking. There was a section of the woods to the west where I usually found a decent amount. The fact that the disappearing hut was in that direction was just a happy coincidence.

Months had bled by and I had already searched all the worlds we used to peek into together. None of them held your buttery laugh or your strong, broad frame. I tried to swallow the burning in my throat. The emptiness in my chest cavity grew more cavernous by the day and I feared examining it too closely. Samuel called it denial.

Maybe Nona would have some advice.

If You’re Reading This

Dear Liz,

If you’re reading this, it means I’m dead.

I’m sorry to lay this on you today, of all days. I mean, I assume you’re getting this right before you leave to board the Ark, because once you take off for the vast expanses of space, you’ll never know. I could have been Schrodinger’s Sister, but instead, you’re reading this letter.

So…death…What do you think? Am I in heaven? Hell? Have I simply ceased to exist? Or am I coming back as a well-fed house cat like I always wanted? There might be a mama cat out there somewhere right now, giving birth to me. It could happen.

If you’re wondering how I died, I just have to say: Me too! Obviously, I’m not dead as I write these words. I’m pretty curious, actually. How’s it going to happen? Here are my top three guesses:

1. Caught in the rain. (Enough said.)

2. Ate something poisonous. (The odds are high.)

3. Gunned down by The Faction. (I might have sneaked into one of their bases and found their plans to destroy the Ark before it leaves the ground.)

Oh, and while I’m on the subject – The Faction has secret plans to blow up the Ark. If I didn’t manage to get this information to the right people, you might want to let someone know before you board and end up dying in a nuclear explosion like the one that took out New York last year. See attached file for details.

On a more personal note…I know you’re probably feeling guilty about leaving me behind. We promised “together forever” back when the war started. The day we enlisted and made Mom cry because both of her girls were going off to war. We swore to her we’d have each other’s backs. We swore it.

I’ve been blaming you for a long time, but I suppose you know that. And I guess I’m not blameless here either. So for my role in all that’s come between us for the past few months, let me just say that I’m sorry.

It wasn’t your fault that you passed the screening to get passage on board the Ark and I ended up having some stupid congenital condition that shouldn’t make any difference at all, not even if your real goal is to genetically engineer the future of the human race in some bullshit facsimile of “perfect.” Which, I suppose, is exactly what they’re doing. We knew it when we went to the testing facility. I just never imagined for one second that they’d split us up, and it wasn’t fair for me to ask you to stay here on Earth with me. You were right when you said that one of us should go.

It’s just that we’ve done everything together. We were even born together! Our first date was a double date. We both lost our virginity the same night. (Okay, that was weird and unexpected, but it did happen.) We went to college together, right up until the war.

Remember when we had to tell Mom we were enlisting? You lied and told her you were pregnant first, trying to soften the blow, only Mom would rather you have been pregnant than join the resistance! I can still hear her screaming.

It was a valiant attempt, though. It worked before, telling her something horrible to soften the blow. Like when we told her that her favorite TV show was canceled…she almost didn’t notice that we’d gotten in trouble for skipping school!

So the good news is, I’m not actually dead. Surprise! That must be a real weight off your chest, right?

Yep. Alive and well and oh, I broke into your apartment last night and swapped our papers. I’m going on the Ark.

You could lodge a protest and insist they redo the screening to prove our identities. It might work. They might decide to give you back your seat on the Ark. But that would take valuable time so it’s more likely they’ll just skip to the first alternate and neither one of us would get to go.

And of course, as you said, one of us should go.

So instead of lodging a complaint, how about if you make sure the enclosed data has reached the proper authorities so The Faction doesn’t blow up the Ark, taking the best hope of humanity – and your dear sister – with it?

I’ll miss you.

Love,

Beth

Christine Amsden is the author of nine award-winning fantasy and science fiction novels, including the Cassie Scot Series. In addition to writing, she is a freelance editor and political activist. In her free time, she enjoys role playing, board games, and a good cup of tea. She lives in the Kansas City area with her husband and two kids.

For All The Worlds You’ll Make

Three weeks before the biosphere collapsed for good, our best and brightest set out for the stars. It was obvious from the start that you would be among them.

When you moved into our street, you were eleven and the bees had virtually disappeared from their last holdouts in Europe and North America, the ones they tried to reintroduce from captivity unable to cope with the heat. I remember being excited. I had friends online, from our school server and from some of my VSR games, but none in-person. You were shy and never left your mother’s side when you all came over to introduce yourselves, breathing apparatus muffling your words as you stood on our doorstep. Wildfire season had started early.

You told me your name, and I told you mine, and it was several months before I saw you again.

It was a bad year, and your folks wouldn’t let you play outside, even when the haze index was low and you promised to wear your breathing mask. It was online where I got to know you. You joined me in myriad worlds in VSR, and I showed you all the tricks of the trade. Naturally, by now I knew how to bypass the parental controls and get to the good stuff: first-person shooters, medieval battle sims, supercar racing and realistic space battles. I took you raiding across Scandinavia, into zero-G dogfights in Saturn’s ring system, and brawling with kaiju in Tokyo. But you preferred the quieter stuff, where you made things, created your own worlds, and the systems that ran and governed them. I didn’t mind—it was a nice change of pace. You opened up as I helped you construct a fully functional space station that linked a loose cluster of asteroids. You’d been lonely all your life, and hated being shut-in all the time. The curfews were creeping closer and closer towards each other, and the final in-person schools had closed their doors the year before we were both due to start kindergarten. The windows of opportunity where we could go outside were getting smaller and smaller—not that you were allowed, anyway. We devoured 2D media from around the turn of the century, watching kids riding bikes aimlessly around their hometowns, getting into mischief and evading bullies.

We made the best of it. As the UN disbanded, and more and more nations abandoned their climate pledges, we carried on with our grand project. Our virtual space station grew and grew. Soon, I realised that the details were beyond my understanding, and as you grappled with the logistics of hydroponics, atmospheric recycling and life support maintenance, I acted as muscle. Other players, bored and sadistic, were a constant threat. What I lacked in architectural intelligence, I made up for in my abilities as a starfighter. I deterred wave after wave of would-be-trolls until one day I couldn’t. They ripped through my defences like a cavalry charge and blasted our ark into shrapnel.

I was devastated, but you just saw it as an opportunity to rebuild, and build better. Sometimes you took my advice on board, but I could tell that most of the time you’d already thought of it yourself.

That winter, the sea retook most of the Netherlands and continued its advance into South-East Asia. COV-64 was running itself into the ground, but what they were already calling COV-67 was starting to show up in more testing centres around the globe.

When we were fourteen, you finally convinced your parents to let you play outside. Your dad had made you wear a ridiculous filter-hood that made you look like some D-tier superhero. I hardly wore mine anymore. As long as it wasn’t the height of wildfire season, or I didn’t play out too many days in a row, things didn’t get too bad.

You were thinner and paler than your various online avatars, but your voice was the same, and so were the expressions on your face. You got out of breath a lot easier—your stamina bar in the outside world was a lot less forgiving. By the end of the summer, though, you could beat me in a footrace nearly a quarter of the time.

On my fifteenth birthday, the global population hit twelve billion, crammed into the corners of the world that were still hospitable to life. Iceland and Greenland had permanently closed their borders.

Your virtual space station—I’d stopped thinking of it as ours a long time ago—had grown exponentially. It was host to hundreds of semi-sentient NPCs, and other players visited to wander the great atriums and geodesic domes full of plant life, asteroids linked by enclosed walkways that gave unparalleled views of the starscape turning overhead. It was fully self-sufficient, and you had made it all yourself. All I had done was make sure no one else had blown it up again. By now, though, you had a following online, and I had help, commanding a small fleet of defensive fighters that guarded the space around the station fiercely.

School was no different. I’d always been in the top classes in our district, but working with you felt like I’d wandered into the wrong lesson. You were coding AIs before I could even program something as simple as a wildfire sentry drone, and your homework made mine look like an afterthought. Soon, you were transferred to another school server, one that was able to accommodate you, and I was left alone. We still talked after class, and on weekends, but it was clear we were on different paths.

Shortly after the Four Minute Exchange across the Indo-Pakistani border, a loose collective of desperate nations announced the Columbus Project. It didn’t make the front pages, but you were transfixed. It was our only hope, you said; to truly gain a foothold amongst the stars before life on Earth was snuffed out for good. All our eggs were in one basket, and the basket was catching fire.

Other people our age, apparently, were sourcing illegal alcohol and discovering each other. But by the time you were nineteen, you’d caught the attention of the grown-ups at the big table. Your space ark project in VSR, and the experience and insight you could bring, had been enough to get you a ticket. You came online one night to tell me you were leaving in the morning to go work on the Columbus Project.

We met on the hill that overlooked the Financial District, the faint glow of distant fires tinging the undersides of clouds far to the south. Drones peppered the skies above and between the buildings like flies above a carcass. Soon the clouds cleared, and a handful of stars were visible, despite the smog. You pointed out Betelgeuse, Orion’s Belt, Polaris, and Sirius. Alpha Centauri was too faint to pinpoint.

You awkwardly thanked me for everything; for being your friend when you were alone, for helping you with your projects and giving you something to keep going for. I was glad it was too dark for you to see my face.

The next morning you were gone, and you didn’t come back online. Your parents wouldn’t answer the door. Two days later, the bike arrived that I’d bought online to give to you before you left for Florida. The delivery had been delayed.

As further resource wars broke out in the Arabian Caliphate and Siberia, I found myself a job providing end-of-life care. It broke me afresh every day, until eventually, I realised it was breaking me a little less every time. It never stopped tearing me to pieces, not fully, and if it had, I’d have been terrified that a part of me had been lost. But death was everywhere: on the news, in the streets, in the air, in the glow on the horizon, on every unwashed surface, and you grew used to it.

Eventually you returned my messages. You’d been busy, you said. The Columbus Project was nearing completion. The first fleet of generation ships would be launching in a few months’ time, crammed to the brim with scientists, engineers, entrepreneurs, and the brightest young minds the world had to offer.

There were a few final days where we got to talk. You spoke about the things from your project that they had already implemented in real life, and laughed about the things that they hadn’t. I joked about the possibility of joining as the Project’s private starfighter, in case you ran into any aggressive aliens. I wasn’t joking, not really. You knew I wasn’t. You said you had already asked for me, but you’d been told that there wasn’t room. We both knew what that meant—I wasn’t the kind of person the Project wanted.

We never got to say a definitive goodbye—they kept you busy, and regressivists carried out strikes on the internet and global communications networks that seemed to get more frequent and more prolonged as time passed. But I think you would have known that I was there when your ship lifted off from the Cape. I accessed the public VSR cameras just off to the side of the launch pad, and stood there as the ship and ground let go of one another, fire and smoke swirling around me as if I were standing under a waterfall. As the smoke cleared, I looked up and watched the vapour trail fade, the ship shrinking to a point of light and then disappearing, you disappearing with it.

It was only a matter of weeks before it became clear that you had left just in time.

That night, I assembled the bike that had sat in our garage since the day it had been delivered, and took it out for a ride. I’d ridden bikes in VSR before, and the balance in real life took a little getting used to, but within a few minutes I was flying. I pulled my breathing apparatus down, ignoring the acrid smell of the air, and looked to the side, seeing you for a moment flying beside me.

I wondered whether it was the past I was truly mourning, or the future, but either way, it was you.

Dan Peacock is a science fiction and fantasy writer from the UK, with short stories forthcoming in F&SF and Kaleidotrope. He is also a First Reader for Orion’s Belt. You can find links to all his published stories at danpeacock.neocities.org.

Man in Amber

There was no point in tapping the acceleration stud again. I had the jitney maxed, or close to it, and speed was not what the designers had in mind. We were explorers, supposed to be calmly, casually examining the surroundings wherever we went. Not two guys rushing back to base from an accident.

I silently swore and cursed at everything. Damn the execs who wouldn’t give us the flyer for a trip this far out. Damn the mediocre precautions against known dangers. Damn this planet. Damn the distance. Damn, damn, damn.

I glanced again over at Roy, sitting impassively strapped in the other seat and watching the view ahead. He hates my constantly looking over at him, but I was scared and frustrated and angry, and I justified myself that I was just keeping an eye on his condition.

“I hope there’s no traffic cops around,” said Roy, his words coming out low, soft, and slow. “And I know you’re checking on me again, Peter. I’m okay — just focus on your driving. No use piling up this fancy buggy and spilling us both.”

“Yeah,” I agreed, and tried to force a joke. “The paperwork alone would be murder. Who wants to die twice?” The corner of Roy’s mouth edged up slightly.


We’d been working together for the company a few years when we got the assignment offer for Carter’s Planet. A routine assay to be made of the planet’s useful minerals and plant life, nothing unusual. Out about a year, three months on-planet, sign the releases, kiss the wife and kids goodbye, then come home to a fat paycheck and retire easy. Simple plan.

Two weeks before we came out of transition stasis, the advance team on the planet discovered the critters. More specifically, the critters discovered the team.

The planet already hosted a variety of flora and fauna, all of which seemed fairly bucolic, according to the reports. Interestingly, anything over about 55 kilos just sort of ambled around, ignoring the newcomers. Maybe one or two showed teeth, but then they’d get over what they were trying to express and slowly wander off. No human counterparts. Quiet little world.

One of the team, Simkins, had been outside, working a small research square of soil so they could see how Earth plants did in that environment. There was no concern about contaminating the planet — the soil was in containers, and the shields were still operating at the base, committed to the task of keeping CO2 low and our breathables comfortable. Nothing else was supposed to pass through.

We still aren’t sure how they got in, but we surmise Simkins had a tear in his encounter suit. As they say, that’s all it takes. Beatty, who was watching Simkins the entire time from inside the lab (standard precaution), said later that a dark translucent fog settled around Simkins for a minute, then dissipated. Simkins didn’t say anything, didn’t shout, just slumped to the ground like a puppet with its strings cut.

All hell broke loose in the lab, however. Everyone dived into their suits and readied the iso lab which, fortunately, had a door to the outside. Several went out to pick up Simkins who, to everyone’s surprise, got his feet under him as they stood him up, thanked everyone, and slowly made his way to the iso lab door. Under escort, of course.

The iso lab gear was good, as good as you can get set up on a remote planet, but it still took a week to find them in Simkins. They were miniscule — you needed magnification to see them well. They probably started as a few, but they reproduced quickly, and they were apparently organized. They had started at Simkins’ extremities and were working their way to his core, slowly, inexorably. And they were feeding, not on the meat, not on the blood components. They were consuming axons and dendrites, particularly along those nerves that twitched the muscles, the same pathways that Galvani’s electricity made the legs of dead frogs move. They were like gourmets at a fete, slowly gobbling up everything on the buffet. Simkins grew steadily more paralyzed, conscious the entire time, until they found the non-muscled inner organs and took a liking to the nerve cells there. The critters were chewing up all the energy, taking it for their own needs, and didn’t stop or leave until they were done — they were pretty dedicated to their grisly task. The swarm exited the host only after the host died from the massive organ failure. Apparently they lost interest in a food supply gone stale. Not unlike parasitic wasps, I was told.

They named the damned things for Simkins. Obscene way to be memorialized. “That which does kill us, makes us immortal.” Something like that. Simkins, himself, tried to make light of the situation and called them ZomBees. Stupid joke. The name stuck.

It also explained the behavior of the larger native animals beyond the shields, the ones that just wandered around seemingly aimlessly. Brain was firing, but the body was just carrying it around and not feeling much else. Run? No. Feel pain? Maybe. Feed? Oh, sure, why not? This looks okay. And, repeat, until your insides stopped getting instructions, the connections vacuumed away by the Bees, and you laid down and stopped living. Except it was different for us Earthers, as Simkins demonstrated. They liked us — we didn’t malinger so long.

So, yeah. Roy got Bee’d. I’d heard a soft hum as we worked opposite corners of a target spot, no more than a couple meters apart. I turned, saw the cloud around him, watched him drop and the cloud clear. Without thinking about much else, even my own safety, I scooped up Roy, carried him to the jitney, strapped him in and punched the controls to life, screaming to the base over the radio every ten minutes the entire way out of the zone.

The Only Feasible Way Forward

Elena feels it when her brother dies. She knows it in her bones before the phone rings. She sits for an unknown time, staring at her hands. At the floor beyond. At nothing. Max is dead and there is nothing she can do to change it. Nothing she could have done. She is powerless and pointless and empty and torn in half.

It is the first time she’s experienced loss. Even in the depths of her grief, even as her every thought drowns in the ocean of her pain, she understands that it won’t be the last.

Everything dies, after all.


She says pretty words at Max’s funeral. About how he was her twin, her other half. About how he still chased after butterflies and never bothered to tie his shoes and insisted that puns were clever. People laugh and cry, and her voice quavers but doesn’t break.

But when it’s her turn to pour dirt into the hole, onto his coffin, to cover him and say goodbye forever, she crumples. She falls onto her knees and clutches the dirt to her chest and weeps.

She doesn’t remember how she gets home, after. She comes back to herself curled on her bedspread, still in her muddy black dress, one shoe on, one in the doorway, wedging the door open.

She wonders if this is what going crazy feels like.

Then Max sits next to her on the bed.

“It’s not so bad,” he says. His voice sounds just like it always has. “Being dead, that is.”

Elena just blinks at him, rubs her eyes, blinks again. He’s a little translucent, a little fuzzy at the edges.

“You need to pull yourself together,” Max says. “Mom and Dad are taking it pretty hard too, you know? You can’t just break down. They need a functioning kid.”

“You’re dead.”

“I know.”

“No. I felt Max die. I felt him… go. I don’t know what you are, but you’re not my brother.”

Max’s form shimmers, then settles, like wind ruffling the surface of a pond. “Well, that’s disappointing,” he says. He still looks like Max, but everything else about him is different. His posture, his expression, the way he sits in her room like he’s never been there before. “I thought that I’d be able to fool you. I suppose I should have known better.”

“What are you?”

Not-Max shrugs. “You’ll see me as your enemy, I suppose. I killed your brother. Ate him from the inside out. Consumed his memories and shape. His mind. His attachments.” He sighed. “I probably shouldn’t be telling you all of this, but I have all of Max’s memories. It’s like I’m used to telling you everything.” He sighs again, this time rubbing his forehead in an achingly familiar gesture. “They told us that the attachments are the worst part, but I wasn’t prepared. Loving someone is quite painful, you know. Especially if you’ve never done it before.” He pats her hand. His skin is dry and cold. “I’m going to go talk to our parents. I hope I can fool them.”

“I’ll tell them you’re a fake.”

He smiles Max’s crooked smile, but his eyes are smug and condescending. “You’re a little unstable at the moment. Having a rough time. They won’t believe you.”

“Of course they will. You’re impossible.”

“How can I be impossible? I’m standing right here. They’ll want to believe me. So they will. It’s the only feasible way forward.”


Her mother makes pancakes for dinner, since they were Max’s favorite. There are four places set at the table. Elena can’t believe that they’re just accepting this. “That’s not Max. It’s some kind of replicant or something. It told me so itself.”

“You’re right,” Not-Max says, his voice pitched low. “She does seem overwrought.”

“Don’t be absurd, Elena,” her father says. “I’d know my son anywhere. It’s a miracle. And Max isn’t the only one who’s back! It’s all over the news. They’re calling them shadows.”

“That isn’t Max! It’s the thing that killed Max!”

“Honey, stop it. I thought you’d be happy to have your brother back. Now, sit down and eat.”

Not-Max sits in Max’s chair. Elena storms back to her room and slams the door.

No one comes after her.


More and more people fall sick. But it’s not a problem anymore, because their shadows will just take their places. And of course their shadows are still them–they have all of their original’s memories, know things that only the original person would know. People test them, and they perform perfectly.

And if only people who die of this specific illness get shadows, well, that’s part of the miracle. Accidents still happen, after all. It’s not like death is over.

There are others who see the truth, of course. But they are dismissed as deluded, as fearmongers, as selfish girls who want to wallow in the misery of losing a twin instead of accepting that he’s still right here.

Not-Max is more and more solid every day. Less translucent. He doesn’t need to look like a ghost, so he doesn’t bother. Elena’s parents seem happy to just forget the months of sickness, the funeral, the fear and pain. Elena ignores him. Ignores her parents’ disappointment at her attitude, ignores his sad, pleading eyes.

“I miss you,” he says, over and over, increasingly frantic. “Please, tell me what I can do.”

She ignores him and walks away.

Willing Souls

The artificial glow of your backlit eyes flickered at the ceiling from the filthy stone floor of the cellar, our inevitable tomb. Up the splintered stairs, the buzzing horrors with their searching green tendrils marking the end of the world slammed over and over into the other side of the door, well barricaded for the moment. But it wouldn’t be long now. The screwdriver you’d handed me from the cache of tools in your arm laid discarded at my booted feet. I hated you for lying down, for suggesting this. For promising to leave me alone.

I shifted my glare from your glinting frame to the circular cast-iron drain cover you’d torn from the ground. Rounded metal rungs forming a ladder into the sewers were visible from where I stood trembling. It was a narrow opening, big enough for me, but not for the creatures. And not for you.

“Professor Evaline, you are nearly out of time,” you intoned, your voice choppy on the syllable transitions. I should have fixed that so long ago.

“This can’t be the only way,” I said. I ran overlong nails through my mess of dark hair, frizzy from sweat despite the cold. It was such a stupid, predictable thing to beg. Even now, looking back, I’m not sure which of us realized it first—that there was no other way out, that you were too broad to fit, and that I’d need your power core if I hoped to survive, for light to navigate by and for warmth. But you’re the one who actually said it.

“Professor Evaline, you are nearly out of time,” you repeated.

“I can’t hurt you,” I said bitterly. “You know I can’t do it.”

“That is correct,” you replied, ever mechanical. “You cannot hurt me. I do not experience pain.” You weren’t even looking at me.

“It would kill you—”

“That is incorrect. I cannot die, as I am not alive.”

“Stop it,” I said. “You are alive—you’re being deliberately obtuse—”

“Professor Evaline, I am not an artificial intelligence. You have seen my programming parameters.”

“But to me—”

“Professor Evaline, your perspective cannot alter my software. Please proceed with the necessary dismantling.”

The door up the stairs creaked, then gave between two boards nailed over it. A backlit hole appeared briefly in the center before thick undulating vines wriggled their way though, and the pounding continued—we had minutes at most.

I knelt beside you, your sleek silver panels concealing the wires, the chips, the heart within. Took the screwdriver in hand again. I brought it over the first screw that would need to go. And then I dropped it back down, and my face landed in my hands.

“Professor Evaline, if you are unwilling to act, I will need to risk damaging the core to extract it for you. This will greatly diminish your chances of success. I will allow ten seconds.”

I counted down from ten without looking up. But when without a word you raised your metal fingers to pry off your central plate, I latched onto your closest wrist to hold the action back—and I had no effect.

You were clumsy, and you began to glitch and smoke as you corrupted your own innards. You knew your layout, but you weren’t designed for this. I thought you’d lose capacity for movement long before you dug it out, at the rate of the damage being done. But then, with a final burst of power, you jerked, and I flinched and let out a sound I didn’t recognize. You’d calculated the endpoint perfectly—six inches above your now-inert form, suspended loosely between your palms, you offered me your spherical heart, gently pulsing green through the lacework of thinly threaded silver and rubberized ports.

Down the drain, into the freezing damp, it wasn’t a minute before I heard the barred door finally explode, the rush of insectoid bodies flooding the cellar, the furious buzzing as they tried to force themselves into the sewers after me. For a moment, I held my breath, and a sick part of me hoped that we’d miscalculated after all. But only a writhing bouquet of their pointed tendrils squeezed through, reaching not even a third of the way to the ground. In the soft emerald radiance cast from your gift, they menaced, but that was all they could do.

With a shiver and onset of chattering teeth, I cupped both hands around your heart, and I held its warm metal to my throat to heat the blood as I forced myself away. I stumbled through grimy half-iced tunnels for what must have been hours, time I had no way to track. In those numb, fumbling steps, despair gave way to resentment gave way to exhaustion, and your last moments replayed in my head, over and over, until I felt nothing.


I still don’t know if there are other humans left. I think it’s been weeks, and I haven’t found them. I wish I could bring myself to disrespect your sacrifice with surrender, just sneak up a building and throw myself off, let a swarm of the foliage-scarab hybrids crunch me away in their incandescent jaws. Far easier, forget to scrounge for food or water, let the pack I pulled off that soldier in the tunnels sit a little lighter on my back.

It’s funny, though—I never wanted there to be souls until you died. And now all I think about is yours, and whether mine will be able to find it in the end. I work on a system of metaphysics, when I can, that would grant an android a soul, grant anything a soul, as long as they were loved enough. It’s the details, though: Can your soul be revoked if we’re apart for too long? If I stop loving you, if I forget, do you cease to be made? Where do you wait?

Your core is still so warm.

Lex Chamberlin (they/she) is a nonbinary and autistic writer of sci-fi, fantasy, and horror with a master’s degree in book publishing and a bachelor’s degree in philosophy. They reside in Portland, OR, with their husband and chihuahua mixes. In their spare time, they enjoy cooking, video games, and martial arts.

Truth in Repetition

My fellow negotiator circled the map projected on the broad table in the center of the pool, her tentacles sloshing small, briny waves over my knees. I watched her movements, the way her lower limbs acted with complete independence from the upper arms.

If I hadn’t decided to work for the company, I could have joined one of the science teams coming to study her people. Instead, I knew just enough about them to convince her to sign a mining contract. I told myself, like I had on the other worlds, that she’d forgive me when she found out the truth.

It was one of the lies I repeated so often I almost believed it.

My encounter suit had the latest technology, the cost of which came out of my pay, but the chill of the water crept through to numb me to mid-thigh. The cold drained color from my skin, which helped me in these talks. With the environment safe for humans, at least for a while, I’d left the encounter suit open at the top so she could see my face, neck, and chest. For them, covering the skin during a negotiation showed dishonesty.

I’d spent the nine months of my journey studying what the company’s research teams had learned about her people. If I didn’t succeed, this would be my third failure. I’d be fired, debts unpaid.

A faint iridescence chased over her flat, gray torso. Her face had no brows to furrow, no nose to twitch. Her black eyes had no discernable pupils to dilate. Instead, her people looked at the colors on their skin as an emotional compass.

“I do not understand.” Finally, she spoke. Her mouth took in air and pushed sounds back through tubes on her back to hum through the air and water.

The translator bot was reliable but spoke without emotion. I looked to her skin to gauge her mood. Flares of yellow and orange stood out from the gentle swirls of color on her skin. Annoyance, and curiosity, which I could head off if I did everything right.

“Why would you stay such a short time, and only for this land?” She waved a webbed hand, thick and stubby and not human, at the map. “You offer us the technology and experiences of a hundred worlds, for a rock.”

I listened to the clicks and whistles of her speech and felt the vibrations from her voice. The complicated triumvirate of communication using skin pigmentation in addition to auditory signals that also caused vibrational patterns was entirely unique. Their art, their music, would be astounding. Non-human artistic expression had been my specialty. I could have learned so much if I’d kept on a scientific path.

It wouldn’t have paid my loans, which were accruing interest as we spoke. I took a deep breath to keep my heartbeat steady. A flush in my skin would put her on alert. The red color, to them, would mean anger or shame, emotions I should not be feeling. The wrong reaction and she would send me back.

“The land marked in blue is where we would like to buy from you.” I pronounced each word to be sure the translator bot would capture it as well as it could.

“I can read your language, and I understand this map. Better than you do, since it is my world.” Her speech tubes buzzed angrily, and orange flared down her neck and chest.

I couldn’t stop the flush this time and bowed my head, acknowledging regret, until the agitated hum faded from her breathing tubes. Even with my trained patience, I had to struggle to stay relaxed. If I could convince her to sign, I’d get two percent of the profits from selling this planet’s rich fields of beryllium ore. The success would be enough to pull me out of the hole I’d climbed into. If not, I’d have no way to pay off what I owed to school and company until the seven-year non-compete period ended. By which time the interest rate would have ballooned the sum to a number I couldn’t imagine.

I’d spend the rest of my life living in a charity pod so small I’d only be able to lie down one way. I swallowed hard to choke down the thought of what I’d have to do to stay alive. Human life was cheaper than robots, which left ways to earn money that would wear you down to nothing. The chill in my gut had nothing to do with the water or the wind off the ocean waves beating at the walls of the room. I never intended to be a liar, but when I had to choose between lying and the fear of a life of pointless pain, that’s exactly what I did.

“Beryllium is very valuable to our technology,” I said. “You don’t use it. The field of ore is in that area, so we don’t need to go anywhere else. We estimate it will take five sun cycles to extract most of the ore, at which time we can make further arrangements, or we could move on. You would own the ocean above, and we would limit our presence to the land nearby. As you can see, my people aren’t made to move in water like yours.”

I gestured to my legs, thick and clumsy in the waves. She watched me, unblinking. The edges of her solid black eyes crinkled. Darkness flickered amongst the iridescent swirls that flowed against her silver skin. That meant heavy thought, usually concern. Reasonable emotions, in this situation. No need to worry.

“A regret.” She opened her jaws to show a glimpse of pointed incisors – her people’s way of smiling. “We could teach you, if you stay.”

My heart lurched. There it was – the chance I’d have once given everything to take.

She moved again, passing between me and the map as she circled the room. I avoided looking at her, tongue tied and glad my skin wouldn’t show conflict.

“Perhaps.” It was all I could say.

“What if we do not approve of your work?” She moved on. “What if we want you to leave?”

An easy answer, one I’d rehearsed that allowed me to keep a hold on my emotions.

“Your people would observe as much as they wanted. You can halt the project at any time,” I said. “Everything is in the project proposal.”

“What you do is safe?”

Her body flipped in a graceful arc to turn to look at me, one pair of lids blinking as she leveled her stare. I imagined those eyes going dull, the chasing rainbows on her skin decaying to a sickly green. The natural, briny scent of the ocean changed to one of rot and chemicals in my nose. I knew that smell now, from visits to planets at the ends of their contracts. The fine print did not specify how the minerals would be extracted, only that it would be done “safely, with minimal impact.” The company chose planets that were part of no alliances and would not know to ask for specifics. With a contract willingly signed, they had no legal recourse with our government.

“We have done this many times, and safety is our first concern,” I said, the approved words stumbling from my lips while I tried to think.

“This is the truth?” She watched my skin, not my eyes, waiting for it to give me away. All I had to do was to let my heart beat faster and she would know when I lied.

The truth was that her people would be poisoned by the process of extracting minerals. Beryllium particles would float through the water and into their lungs. Only some would die, but their world and their society would be changed forever. The truth was that the company specified a five-year period because they estimated, from experience, it would take that long before they couldn’t hide what they were doing to the planet.

If I told her, she might expel me for the lies. The company would fire me, and I’d fall into a slow death, and for what? I’d be replaced with someone else as they moved to the next planet on their list.

Or I could tell the truth and ask for sanctuary. I could expose the company to anyone who might care. I could do what I’d always wanted and stop lying.

Wind came in from the sea outside, as cold as a splash of ice water. Nothing in the file told me if she would be merciful and let me stay. But I knew exactly how merciful the company would be.

I looked up and smiled. My breath came easily, steady with confidence in my choice. The warm beginning of a flush faded from my skin. As she watched me, yellow whorls of doubt dissipated from her body.

“Of course it’s safe.” I smiled and lied to myself that I didn’t feel regret. “You have my word.”

Elizabeth Rankin is the daughter of a librarian and grew up telling stories in the stacks. She worked in publishing before transitioning to marketing for a company that makes technical materials, which provides lots of story ideas. When not writing, she might be trying out new recipes, volunteering for more than she should, or playing with her dogs. She lives with her husband in their eventual dream house in Cleveland, Ohio, USA

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Know Thy Roommate

The first week in my house, Hermann ate my bookshelf.

Overgrowing his ceramic pot, his green leaves and tentacly vines encroached on the shelves, one by one, covering my books with ivy-like foliage.

Hermann is a plant. At least, I thought he was. Now, I’m not so sure.

He was an odd find at a yard sale eight weeks ago, and I couldn’t leave such a lonely, over-pruned plant sitting in the cold rain. The sight hurt my heart, as if someone had given the Queen’s roses a buzz cut during full bloom.

It needed a loving home. So, I brought it to my house and named it Hermann.

Today, he sits as if plant-purring at me, draped between my bookshelf and curio cabinet, resting the way plants might, if planning. I wonder what he’s thinking. Maybe he’s preening in the cabinet mirror, or trying to figure out how hinges work so he can make his viny way through the door. I have a feeling he might get there someday.

I haven’t tried to rein him in. Maybe I should—but I’m a strong advocate for freedom of all living things. That includes plants, doesn’t it? Maybe I should be more careful, but I like letting Hermann wander around the house. I think he deserves a chance.

Now, Hermann’s vines cover the entire bookshelf and he’s headed for the sofa and end table. Tiny leaves curl around my bookmarks. I imagine his little humming plant thoughts working away at titles, choosing this one or that one—I can almost hear them. Do plants read? Hermann didn’t seem interested in books at first, at least not three weeks ago. Then, I noticed a slight disarray on the shelves, as if small fingers were tipping out volumes and then pushing them back. A week later, Hermann managed to knock selected works off the shelves in alphabetical order. I think he’s getting smarter.

I think he’s trying to tell me something.

Last week, he went for Shakespeare.

Maybe he’s hungry for knowledge.

Three days ago, I started reading A Tree Grows in Brooklyn out loud to him. I thought he might like it. He didn’t rustle for hours afterward, but he’d consumed the end table by morning. I’d also left my copy of The Scarlet Pimpernel on it.

This morning, his fallen leaves spelled out my name on the floor. I’m touched, but I’m getting a little nervous. When I come home from work today, I think I’ll talk with him.


I climb the last steps to my front door, thinking about Hermann, as I have all day. As I place my key in the lock and turn it, leaves curl out from under the door, arranging themselves into the word “Bienvenue” on my doormat. A tiny vine threads through the crack in the door and winds around my key. As I apprehensively push open the door, a tendril drops from above, sliding over my shoulder. It coils around my wrist and I’m tugged inside my house, into evening darkness, hearing a distinct rustle of approaching familiar leaves.

A lamp turns on. I look up to find Hermann towering above me—he’s grown! I must have left plant fertilizer in an unlocked cabinet. But the foliage bends aside and the tendril tugs me over to the sofa. There, I find a hot cup of tea awaiting and Les Miserables sitting open on the coffee table.

A page is marked.

I look at Hermann. He rustles a little, as if waiting expectantly. “Thank you,” I say. I sit on the sofa and pick up the book, the fragrance of lemon tea wafting around me. As I read aloud about prisons and escapes and freedom, Hermann’s tendrils creep past me, rustling over to the window. Framing it with his vines and leaves, he seems to peer wistfully outside.

I close the book in sudden realization.

“I understand, Hermann.”

Rustle.

I go search for a shovel. Some living things simply aren’t meant to be contained. I’m so glad he told me. I know a perfect spot he’d like in the back garden, where he’ll never be enclosed again: in the sun, and at the edge of the forest, if he chooses to explore farther. I’d like him to have a choice. I’m sure he’ll tell me when he’s ready to move on. And, in the meantime, I have some lovely books about the outdoors that I think he’ll enjoy.

Sandra Siegienski is a speech pathologist in the Pacific Northwest. Her fiction has appeared in The Colored Lens and The Timberline Review, and has placed in multiple contests, including the Mike Resnick Memorial Award and the L. Ron Hubbard Writers of the Future Contest. An enthusiastic student of languages, culture, dance, and history, Sandra is currently writing a variety of sci-fi/ fantasy and young adult novels as well as short stories.