{"id":976,"date":"2013-05-21T00:42:18","date_gmt":"2013-05-21T00:42:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thecoloredlens.com\/?p=976"},"modified":"2023-11-04T15:06:30","modified_gmt":"2023-11-04T15:06:30","slug":"grandmas-shoes-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/thecoloredlens.com\/?p=976","title":{"rendered":"Grandma&#8217;s Shoes"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Becca climbed out her bedroom window, grabbed a shovel, and ran to the graveyard.  Becca&#8217;s mother had ordered her grandma buried in Becca&#8217;s favorite pair of shoes, and homecoming was approaching fast. <\/p>\n<p>     Becca figured she&#8217;d take the jewelry, too, while she was there.  Her grandmother would have wanted her to have it.  She didn&#8217;t let herself hope for anything more. <\/p>\n<p>     The full moon illuminated the graveyard well enough for her to dig without any other light.  The soil was loose, but she still worked up a sweat in the heavy late-summer air.  She&#8217;d never done much digging before.  Her arms burned and her back ached.  She wished she&#8217;d thought to borrow a backhoe.  She wished she knew how to use a backhoe.  She wished that her mother wasn&#8217;t so horrible, and that her grandmother was still alive. <\/p>\n<p>     After what felt like an eternity, her shovel thunked into the hardwood casket.  She removed enough dirt to clear the top half of the lid, then she jerked it open.  A thin stream of dirt cascaded down the side of her hole, onto her grandmother&#8217;s waxy face. <\/p>\n<p>     The stink hit Becca like a bag of hammers, and her stomach lurched.  She managed to turn enough to throw up on her own shoes instead of on her dead grandmother&#8217;s carefully arranged gray curls. <\/p>\n<p>     She scowled down at her already-filthy canvas sneakers.  They were going to be a total loss.  But the shoes might have been a lost cause anyway, and it would have been wrong to throw up on her grandmother.  Aside from the puffiness, she looked almost normal.  And Becca had loved her grandmother. <\/p>\n<p>     That, more than homecoming, was why she wanted the shoes back. <\/p>\n<p>     She covered her mouth with her shirt and took a few slow breaths.  She could do this.  She reached in for the necklace, and her fingers brushed her grandmother&#8217;s neck.  The flesh was the same cool temperature as the dirt and too soft&#8211;like a foam mattress. <\/p>\n<p>     Her grandmother&#8217;s eyes snapped open, she grabbed Becca&#8217;s wrist.  Her swollen fingers felt like refrigerated sausages.  Becca yelped and tried to step back, but her feet slipped, and she fell to her knees.  &#8220;What are you doing, Rebecca?&#8221;  Her grandmother&#8217;s voice was wet and distorted, but recognizable. <\/p>\n<p>     Becca&#8217;s terror eased.  Her grandmother wasn&#8217;t mindless&#8211;she remembered who she was.  The hope that Becca hadn&#8217;t let herself feel spread in her chest, and she grinned.  Even dead, her grandmother wouldn&#8217;t hurt her.    <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;I&#8217;m here for the shoes,&#8221; Becca said.  &#8220;It&#8217;s nice to hear your voice again, too.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     Her grandmother blinked at her.  &#8220;Which shoes?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;The red pumps.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;I gave those to you,&#8221; her grandmother said.  &#8220;Why would I be buried in them?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     Becca shrugged.  &#8220;Mom decided.  I don&#8217;t think she wanted me to have them.  She always hates&#8211;hated it when you gave me things.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     Her grandmother sniffed.  &#8220;I raised her better than that.&#8221;  She released Becca&#8217;s wrist and started wriggling around.  She placed one red pump, then a second, on top of the casket.  &#8220;Since you&#8217;re here, you should take the jewelry, too.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     She tried to pull off her rings, but they were trapped on her swollen fingers.  She couldn&#8217;t work the necklace clasp, either.  &#8220;This whole dead thing is quite frustrating,&#8221; she said. <\/p>\n<p>     Becca reached in and unfastened the necklace.  The smell hardly bothered her at all now.  &#8220;I can imagine.&#8221;  Becca put the necklace on and picked up the shoes.  &#8220;Is there anything I can do for you?&#8221; she asked. <\/p>\n<p>     Her grandmother shrugged.  &#8220;I can&#8217;t think of anything.  I don&#8217;t really need much.  I&#8217;m dead, after all.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     Becca blinked back her tears.  She&#8217;d already cried for her grandmother.  &#8220;Okay.  I love you.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;I love you, too, dear.  It would be nice if you&#8217;d come and visit.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;I will.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;And don&#8217;t worry too much about your mother.  Things will get better.  Eventually.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;I&#8211;I&#8217;ll try not to let it get to me.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     Becca reached for the lid.  &#8220;Grandma?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;Yes, dear?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;What&#8217;s it like?&#8221; Becca asked. <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;What&#8217;s what like?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;Being dead.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;It&#8217;s not bad.  But it&#8217;s not great either.  It&#8217;s certainly not something you should rush into.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;Right.  Thanks Grandma.  I&#8217;ll remember.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     &#8220;You do that.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>     Becca closed the lid.  It took less time to fill the hole back in.  She left her vomit-covered shoes next to the headstone and walked home in the red pumps. <\/p>\n<p>     Her mother noticed when she wore the shoes to homecoming, but neither of them mentioned it.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Jamie Lackey has attended James Gunn\u2019s Science Fiction Writer\u2019s Workshop at the Center for the Study of Science Fiction in 2010. Her work has appeared in The Living Dead 2 and Stories from the Heart: Heartwarming Tales of Appalachia. Another of her stories is forthcoming in Daily Science Fiction. Jamie Lacky is also a slush reader for Clarkesworld Magazine.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Becca climbed out her bedroom window, grabbed a shovel, and ran to the graveyard. Becca&#8217;s mother had ordered her grandma buried in Becca&#8217;s favorite pair of shoes, and homecoming was approaching fast. Becca figured she&#8217;d take the jewelry, too, while she was there. Her grandmother would have wanted her to have it. 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